Meaningful song eh? Haha, I also dont know why, this song played in my head since the start of the day.
Anyway, I had insomnia last night (just like the past few days, also dont know why). My aunt came over to stayover, so I slept on the mattress on the floor. As I left my eyes wide open (due to the insomnia), I realised that i was looking at my room from another angle. All of a sudden, I recalled that that wasnt used to be my room-- it used to be my grandmother's room.
A surge of memories flowed through my mind:
There used to be 2 beds in the room (one for our maid and one for grandma), grandma's wooden wardrobe, her old electric fan and drawers. I can vividly rmb how I always hid in the small gap between the wardrobe and drawers whenever we played hide-and-seek in the house. Haha! Otherwise, I'd hide under the beds. I even found the room a little eerie cos my cordless phone would have crossline problems very often when I talk on the phone in that room.
After she passed on, all her belongings were removed and the room was changed completely: my bed, my wardrobe, poster, new electric fan and radio. Sighs. I think Im missing grandma. ):
Serious insomnia I've got. Random things just kept running through my mind. After all the reminiscence, I suddenly felt that I've a very strong mother. I've never seen my mother cry before, except for 2 occasions:
1. during grandma's funeral 2. once when i was being mischievious
Whenever I have fears (e.g. seeing a ghost, creepy crawlies, other difficulties), she always puts on her brave front and tells me that those barriers are insignificant and that I must have the courage to conquer them. I always tell her that she's a lousy listener cos she doesnt know how to console people; she blames me for acting like a coward instead and will start preeching (you know, ppl in distress always want other ppl to say good things to them and make them feel better.. haha).
I rmb there's once, my father wasnt at home. We both spotted a flying cockroach at home. We were both scared of it. (she was even on the verge of screaming alrdy lah!) But for my sake, she picked up her courage and attacked the roach! Perhaps it was her love for me that overcame her fears. Nevertheless, I really take my hat off her for being such a strong woman.
I must be strong too, just like Ju Xiang and Yue Niang (characters of Little Nyonya haha!) and of course, my mother.
--We need strength to conquer difficulties! Never say die!
Btw, I've finished my Little Nyonya drama series! Wheeee! It's one of the best local serials in my opinion! Tmr is the first day we're teaching... May God bless us, hope that everything goes smoothly! (:
